What The &%$#

I have been waiting to share my wonderful news with everyone. It was good news and now its just frustrating and I am a mess. So, before the story gets any longer, lets start from the begging.

On Sat 2/2 we found out I was pregnant. Yeah! I had a positive home pregnancy test and we shared our news with only a handful of people since it wasn’t official yet. Monday morning I called to make my positive pregnancy test appointment. It was made for Thursday 2/7 at 10:45am. So, I was able to enjoy my news for 5 days.

For some reason on Thursday morning, I decided to use up my last home pregnancy test. I guess I wanted to use up my last test. I really don't know why. And of course it was positive.
Also, since I found out I was pregnant, I substituted my morning tea with water. So, on Thursday morning I had my bottle of water before my appointment.

I arrived at my appointment with my mom (my husband couldn't get out of work for this apt, but he was planning on being there at the next one). We are called in. My mom is escorted to the examining room while I am conducting the urine test. I asked the nurse as I hand her my clear sample, if drinking water would effect the test. She said no. Well, two negative pregnancy tests later, I would say it does.

So, after I wait for 20 minutes talking with my mom about what the heck is going on, the doctor finally walks in. She walks in and right from the start is telling me all the negative things this could mean (the 2 negative tests). She never offered a positive solution or even suggested that my urine sample this morning was diluted so lets try again tomorrow. No, she gives me her opinon on the situation and they are - I have a chemical pregnancy or I am going to miscarry.

I told her I just tested positive this morning 4 hours ago. She just shrugged this off and continued to type in her laptop. My mom then asked, can it ever be that two positive tests at home could be wrong? The doctor said no and then she offered that the pregnancy tests at the office have not been working properly lately since they received a bad batch. Then she starts talking about miscarriages again in her next breath.

Then the doctor says, well lets get a blood test ordered and we'll see if that is positive. Then we will continue from there. Also, at this point I am balling my eyes out. I know I am pregnant at this point and she is acting like I am not or that I was going to lose it any minute now. She couldn't confirm I was pregnant so we never talked about what food to eat and avoid, what activities to do and avoid, she just told me to continue to take my vitamins. Also, she did figure out how far along I was (5 1/2 weeks) but never talked beyond that.

At 5:07pm that night, I received a call from the doctor and what do you know, my blood test was positive for pregnancy. She then said she wanted me to come back in for a retest in 48 hours for a urine test. I thought this was odd since it was confirmed by my blood work, but I agreed.
I called the office Friday morning to make my urine retake.

Then around 2:30pm a nurse calls me. She asked if I needed to make an apt for a blood test. I said no the doctor wants me to come in to do another urine sample to make sure my "numbers" are rising. The nurse says no, its already confirmed you are pregnant, the blood tests are more sensitive and she ordered me another blood test for Tuesday 2/12 (I couldn't do it sooner because I was going out of the area to visit my step-son) to test my "numbers".

Yesterday morning I go and give my blood sample. I ask the nurse when will I know the results. She said, oh the doctor didn't put a "stat" on the tests, so it might no be until tomorrow. (What the *&%$! I just want to know that the heck is going on!) Then the nurse says call the office after 4pm today and see if the lab work is in the computer. So, at 4pm I call the doctors office and the nurse calls me back. She now says, the "numbers" have gone up, but not as much as we would like. She doesn't know what the doctor would like to do for the next step, but she will review the results tomorrow and someone will call me back.

I have enjoyed my pregnancy for 5 days and ever since my last Thursdays apt I have been paranoid at every little thing that goes on in my body. I freak out, oh my god am I going to lose it, what does that little cramp mean, what does that little pang mean. I still am pregnant, I still have pregnancy "symptoms", but I just want to know what is going on. I am currently a little over 6 weeks pregnant.